i hate U

its 2.40pm....i just received a call frm sis.... haiz.... tis call doesn't contribute any +tiv feeling to me... T_T

i was plan to hav a nap at 2.30pm since i hav done 70% in my revision, thn i can wake up at 3.30pm to continue it..... bt the call make me feel extremely down..... I HATE TEARS..... i promise myself tat nt to let them come out frm my eye again !!!! i hav a thought appear in my mind... which is pack my stuf n drive back to where i should b right now..... sometimes.... ppl hav no power at all for controlling wat should b happen at a right moment which they think it is.... can some1 pls tel me wat to do? my heart is bleeding whn i listen to her voice....i seriously hope tat i can b there wif her all the time....sorry mummy..... i cant hug u right nw..... god, pls protect her n make her bcum stronger as i cant always b there for her..... i hate myself for being so useless........