yes~!! i stil hav ur ♥

its the happiest thing when u woke up n found a present tat is purposely bought for u~

it feel lik Santa Claus was here....

he dropped something for me last night.....

of course its nt a gift by Santa....

thx Shervyn~ especially ur own-made card....

its lovely.... i like it so much....

actually she bought tis choco. whn i was wif her.... v went to tesco to purchase our "stock" as enrichment for study week... i stil remember tat i asked her some questions whn she buy it... 

i noe tat tis is not under her "enrichment list" cox she said its too sweet for her....tats y i suspect her motive ad.... XD 

anyhow, she drop it on a right time... babe~ u really draw a smile on my face successfully..... yesterday was just a dream for me... everything turn into bubbles when i received ur chocolate~ 

i'm glad tat actually a lot of frens r caring about me.... i noe u all try to cheer me up... i can sense it..... even just a talk / msg.... yes! i'm talking about U, U, U and U!!!  all of u~ =) lov u all...

Xie~ Xie~!!! i feel warm to hav friendSs lik U~!!  sorry for u guys if i putting a "poker face" on.... (i mean emo face... haha...) =P

u always try to draw a smile on my face whenever i am down n emo.....

i noe i wasn't tat perfect as ur bff.... 

sometimes i feel sorry to throw a temper tantrum....

but u never get mad of me n even try to make me calm...

thanks for being my fren, shervyn....

累... 泪...?

我累了...  真的累了!!!

谁来扶持我??

我从没放弃过...   

不断地尝试...

但是一次次的打击...         

让我身心疲惫不已...

当我落下最后一滴泪水时...          

代表我心已死...

求你别再烦我...

我发誓...不留恋...就~ 我眼泪干枯时...

formation of calluses ♪

hmm.... i think its time for me to hide at home.... hopefully i can get bc the honor of "Miss Cameron" by not being expose to the "lovely sun" in kampar... XD wakaka~!!  
my white complexion is missing ad... =(


bside~ my fingers started to develop something that i keep avoiding since i was young.... eeee~~ kesian lah~ calluses is growing on my fingertips... =( 

haiz~ guitar, u make me fall for u and hate u at the same time... ♫♩♪

actually both palm r having calluses too... y? 
hmmm... it related to the information below tat i wish to share wif u guys~


how much do u noe about rubber tapping? 
have u ever tried it before? =)


Rubber tapping is a hard work. 
It can starts as early as 2 am. serious~!!!! 
The coolness of the early morning air encourages the latex to flow thus improving the yield.
However, the tapping will continue until late morning. T_T 
do u believe tat it could take almost 9hours, for tapping and collecting process?!!
but its depend on how big is the plantation area.... 


A special tapping knife is used to shear off a thin layer of rubber tree's bark. if u dono hw does it look lik... here's the pic...

during the "cutting" process... care must be taking not to cut too deep as this would injure the tree. better practice few times b4 u make a real cut.... 
"boss" wil get mad and worker wil kena scold once he found tat you r "hurting" the rubber tree... 
T_T haiz....
Each night a rubber tapper must remove a thin layer of bark along a downward half spiral on the tree trunk. 

If done carefully and with skill, this tapping panel will yield latex for up to 5 years.

we usually cut it in spiral cox it allow the latex flow down to a collecting cup.

now did u realize that y the work must be done at night? so tat the latex will run longer before drying out....

The 2nd step is collect those "milky liquid".... do not feel tat tis step is more relax~ u hav to collect it from row to row, and if ur tub is almost full, u have to walk all the way bc to pit stop just to empty it...
cox as it bcome more n more heavy, it wil slow you down...cox deplete a lot of energy.... =(
Lastly, the latex will pour into molds and formic acid is added to coagulate the liquid latex.... 




Frankly, tapping of latex from a rubber tree is really a skilled job because a tapper has to make a cut which is only approximately 2 mm deep. do u think u can finished the job easily? especially do it under a dark environment...
by the way, latex doesn't smell lik fresh milk though it look lik.... u have to take minimum 45minutes in bath room to get off the "smell of money".... 
yup~ some1 said tat to me b4.... 
“ 橡胶汁很臭，那～钱臭不臭？” ( if latex is stinky, than how does money smell like? )
did u get wat he trying to interpret? 
=) congratulation if yes~

..................

sorry babe.... 

i wish tat i could b there wif u now.....

i feel bad...

hear ur cry....

my heart feels pain... 

and the tears started to drop....

and yet i dono hw to make u feel better....

='( 

dear, stil remember the words tat i wrote for u last time?
Babe, u noe how much I love u~ how deep I put u in my heart~ so u must take good care of yourself, cox when u sad, I sad; when u cry, I cry; when u feel hurt, my heart feel pain…. Please remember that nobody is going to love u if u dun even love yourself~
please stay strong....
some1 need u to prop up....
i noe that life seems to b unfair....
v cant control everything in our life....
so just face it and do ur best to overcome those challenges...

Don't think of him as gone away

his journey's just begun

life holds so many facets

this earth is only one

just think of him as resting 

from the sorrows and the tears

in a place of warmth and comfort

where there are no days and years

think how he must be wishing

that we could know today

how nothing but our sadness

can really pass away

and think of him as living

in the hearts of those he touched

nothing loved is ever lost

and he was loved so much

i noe u Love m3... =(

i wonder y he love me so much...
its not the 1st time...
he always bump into me...
he keep tracking me....
he try so hard just to rule my life...
i never sense about tat previously....
but as i'm bcoming more n more mature.....
my thoughts n feelings directed me to tat conclusion....

i hate u Mr. Trouble....
sei hoi~!!! sei hoi~!!! i dun love u... nt even like....
pls go away frm me n my family...... i hope tat there is an angel comes to me n help to get rid of "him"!!!

but i noe....tat is something pie in the sky.... T_T
i'l be vry stupid if beat down by those troublesS in my life~ so... pls stay strong my dear.... "he" is not the only 1 who love u~ track u~ n concern about u~

      *wink

crying while u're driving is not ok?
or
its a best way to relief ur sadness/ anger/ desperate, while keep out frm others??

do u ever feel lik.... u'd rather die... ??
hav u ever scold by some1 just bcox u concerned of some1??
hav u ever critic by some1 who u helped in avoid from a unpleasant situation before??

then its time for u to learn how to manage ur EQ n stress....

h.a.h.a.

p/s:
do i like the word "family"?? i hav an unpleasant feeling towards tis word whn the alphabets come to together...
but i love it when it comprehend as "Father and Mother I Love You......"

♪ how could it be?????

gosh..... it should be a nice & memorable weekend.... hw can i spoiled it ?!


T_T sorry.... 
i do try my best to b a professional tuorist guard + buddy... 
however, things doesn't go smoothly.... 
pls believe me, i'm nt showing my -tive side in front of u purposely.... 

i never expect tat i wil hav such reaction... its actually a serious problem for me!!! 
its another phobia!!! 
i was frightened by my own reaction.... whenever i pick it up and try to enjoy the song....
tears started to burst.... 
i am just too tired... i need a shoulder.... can some1 lend me that?? 
how much/how long i can stand for "it"?


i started to feel tat... v hav a gap in between... and the gap is growing......
such feeling is putting me into moody.... =( mayb its a fact, a fact that no1 can doubt it....

i noe every1 wil hav their own destiny, live wil stil go on and  sun wil stil rise...
will try to accept wat is actually happening in my life.... 
no matter it is good or the other way round....


dun worry.... i think what i need is just a corridor to relief the stress.... 

ph3be, u'll overcome those difficulties~!!

*update*
想通了！把每次的练习当成免费的唱K娱乐，轻松面对， 而不是把唱K的娱乐时光当做严肃的练习！
=D

morning~!! =)

it's 8.20am.... 

i was doing some writing in front of my laptop....suddenly my dear called me. =.= she was overslept~!!!! the main point is she has to sit for a test which held at 9am. haha.... luckily i'm in my room & available to giv her a ride... =)

during the 8minutes driving journey, i noe tat its a open book test & the lecturer may collect the paper n let them continue it during the next lecture if majority of them cant finish the test within the time he set. haha... 

so wish u all the best ya~ miss Tan... 

bside, i was get to noe tat  "clash of the Titans" is too boring for her..... ish~!! totally disagree wif u~ blekk!!!

p/s: Shervyn Tan, belanja makan weii~!! u owe me~ =P

okay, lets continue wif wat i trying to share wif u u guys here... =)recently i found tat there r lots of new movies on-show / coming soon. below r the movies tat i listed down in my mind.... n_n 
hope tat i can enjoy them all in the cinema....

Clash of the Titans is described as an action, adventure, drama, fantasy, and is set at the time when gods ruled from Mount Olympus and myths and legends were created.


In “Clash of the Titans,” the ultimate struggle for power pits men against kings and kings against gods. But the war between the gods themselves could destroy the world. 
The main character- Perseus, a demigod, cox he is son of Zeus (God) by a mortal (his mother, Danae).


synopsis:
Perseus volunteers to defeat Hades (vengeful god of the underworld) before he can seize power from Zeus and unleash hell on earth, after he lost his family. 
Leading a daring band of warriors, Perseus sets off on a perilous journey deep into forbidden worlds. Battling unholy demons and fearsome beasts, he will only survive if he can accept his power as a god, defy his fate and create his own destiny.

don't u think it sounds cOoL~?! i love movie tat consist legendary & mythology methods~ it bring me lots of imaginations~!!! =D

iron man 2 another action n venture movie~~ ^.^Tony Stark, the wealthy playboy whose exploits as Iron Man are now public knowledge after his admission at the close of the first film. 

After confessing his identity as Iron Man to the world, Tony Stark comes under fire from the United States Government who demand he hand over the powerful weapon that is the Iron Man suit n the Government attempts to create a duplicate suit with the assistance of Stark's rival, Justin Hammer.

Meanwhile, a mysterious and dangerous foe emerged,then he creates an alternate and powerful persona known as Whiplash in order to exact revenge on the Stark family once and for all... the story bcome more interesting when the foe trying to destroy Iron Man. 
How do Stark overcome the obstacles?? that is the main reason for me to watch it~ =D

Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time is an upcoming action-venture fantasy film. The trailer is awesome~!!!  \ (^0^) /
the story of an adventurous prince who teams up with a rival princess to stop an angry ruler from unleashing a sandstorm that could destroy the world.
In his effort to save his own kingdom and redeem his fatal mistake, it's up to the prince and the princess to return the sands to the hourglass by using the Dagger of Time, which also gives him a limited control over the flow of time (a gift from the gods that can reverse time and allow its possessor to rule the world)

i love the feeling of enjoying the movie in the cinema rather thn watching DVD / online movie at home.... as u know, the cinema provide big screen,10 times as big than my laptop :(

the surrounding system,which make audience immerse into the situation~ =) 

the main point for me is... it's an outing~ ^0^

i always feel tat there's a special magic at the cinema. b4 the movie starts, you're sitting there with your friends,holding ur popcorn and soft drinks and everything.... the excitement is different frm watching DVD alone at home~ dun u agree?? =p