Rejected "P"

Dear friends,

thanks for the motivation & support from u guys~ its sweet & warm.....
but something bad happen to me recently....

hmm... where shall i start?
To be honest, i feel depressed these few days, my mood is totally down...
Rejected Product.... Do u noe wat it feels lik? for being rebuffed?! ><

U r the 1 who gave me hope & bring me into the World of Fantasy,
i gave my vry best & tried so hard to fulfil ur requirements,
but now u''re telling me that it has been turn down....
now i'm hurt and feel dread....

I tried so hard   And got so far 
But in the end   It doesn't even matter 
I had to fall      to lose it all 
But in the end   It doesn't even matter 

I've put my trust in you 
Pushed as far as I can go 

for all this
There's only one thing you should know 

Fortunately, i've got more than just 1 dream~ =P

so i'm gona focus on my "Plan B" & hope it works as smooth as possible.

It doesn't matter if you fall down,

it's whether you get back up - Micheal Jordan

Rejected "P" (华)

  

亲爱的朋友，

谢谢你们一直以来的支持及关心，

因为有你，路途不再孤单。

可惜的是，最近发生了一些让我心碎的事……

你一次又一次地给我希望、让我有遐想的空间。最后我鼓起了勇气，走上了这个“与现实上有差距”的道路。路途中，我接到不少鼓励、正面的回应，但负面的冷嘲热讽往往来得较多，当然众人对我泼的冷水不至于让我放弃，反而更积极。

很遗憾的是，如今，一切都灭了…… 你绝情地把一切烧毁，那感觉犹如把我从天堂里推入地狱，很痛、很伤… 或许是我没有天赋，或许是我太稚气。

我再也不敢幻想了，想那叫我痛彻心扉的梦……也不敢去追寻了，追寻那叫我刻骨铭心的梦……

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但是泪水冲不走昔日的记忆，也洗不掉过去的精神。过去的努力不会是白费的，我还是很感激提拔我的那位“伯乐”，在此向他说声抱歉，这匹千里马要朝其他方向去了。

我会很快地往第二个“梦”前进，昨日的记忆与精神将会陪我继续踏入人生的另一个阶段，虽然有点彷徨、有点忧虑……
Anyway,Life doesn't have a take 2 所以我会尽一切努力让它继续精彩～！！！

最重要的决定～

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超感动的！！
从黑白配开始我就觉得他们真的天生一对了～！
超配的！好羡慕哦！

刚看完康熙（16、17号），整个哭到不行！！！太感人了啦！！！
 ='）

♫ ♪ ♩   ♫ ♩  ♪   ♩ ♪ ♫

我常在想 应该再也找不到 任何人 像你对我那么好

好到我的家人也被照料 我的朋友 还为你撑腰

你还是有 一堆毛病 改不掉 傲起来 气的仙女都跳脚

可是人生 完美的事太少 我们不能什么都想要

你是我最重要的决定 我愿意 每天在你身边苏醒

就连吵架也很过瘾 不会冷冰 因为真爱没有输赢 只有亲密

你是我最重要的决定 我愿意 每天在你身边苏醒

就连吵架也很过瘾 不会冷冰 因为真爱没有输赢 只有亲密

你是我最重要的决定 我愿意 打破对未知的恐惧

就算流泪也能放弃 将心比心 因为幸福 没有捷径 只有经营

♫ ♪ ♩   ♫ ♩  ♪   ♩ ♪ ♫

我很疑惑，

我的脑海里所浮现的，

太复杂了，

我的脑袋负荷不了，

还是把它搁在一旁好了！

byebye my year2sem3....

woOw~ lots of things happened during these few weeks.... n now its time to get ready for a new semester.... haiz... which stories should i go 1st? =p

okay~ after the final exam(12th), i went to penang n i had my vry 1st experience to hav fun in MOIS n TGIF.... the trip was fun.... 

when i reached kampar(13th), i was surprised by my bab3 wif birthday song, colorful balloons, n huge box in my room. as u can see frm my previous post, the light in my room in turned off~ =p

she bought me a box of Q-size cake n a lovely SantaCruz guitar~

can u imagine that how touch it is?? she did everything for me on the day b4 she is going to sit for her exam paper ?! T_T thank you my dear.... 

thx for supporting my dream.... i wil never give up~!!!! ur gift will motivating me along the path to my dream....

the next day(14th), i receive another surprise frm another lovely girl.... =)

i went bc to ayer tawar to enjoy my sem break until 27th May, cox Mario's wedding will b held at 29th. 

so i hav to come bc earlier for "preparation" ^_*

whn i gt bc to kampar, i realize tat my house is "empty"... i mean, i'm the only1 in the three-story house... T_T scary man!!! ='( but luckily i just hav to stand for few days n my housemate will b here soon... 

i was having fun during these few days wil my kawan-kawan.... especially on 29th of may~ 

for morning session, i hav to wake up at 7.30am n get myself ready to join in Elaine's crew, as "ji mui" =D it was my 1st time....my feeling was complicated, happy + nervous + excited ..... =)

here r some of the pic during the morning session... XD 

the gentlemen were kena trick lik monkey~ wakaka!!!!!!!

thn jasmine n i went to a saloon during the afternoon, i hav no idea what's going to happen to my hair when the time i walked in.... finally...

the dinner was awesome~ lots of coOl band r perform during that night~ its more lik a music concert rather than a conventional wedding dinner.... =)

and i get my 1st experience to "having fun" on the stage during Mario and Elaine's wedding dinner... hehe... although it wasn't impressive, but i'm sure its comical... =p

after mario's big day~ i went to ipoh for Prince of Persia wif ally~

OMG~ prince Dastan is so "man"... n the ngbaka~ =p i'm nt sure whether i spell it right or nt~ teehee.....

love the story n the ending.... 

if u view my previous post b4, u should noe tat i was attracted by few movies, but at the end, Prince of Persia is the only 1 tat i able to enjoy it in cinema~ =(

anyway, its nice to watch~ 

formation of calluses ♪

hmm.... i think its time for me to hide at home.... hopefully i can get bc the honor of "Miss Cameron" by not being expose to the "lovely sun" in kampar... XD wakaka~!!  
my white complexion is missing ad... =(


bside~ my fingers started to develop something that i keep avoiding since i was young.... eeee~~ kesian lah~ calluses is growing on my fingertips... =( 

haiz~ guitar, u make me fall for u and hate u at the same time... ♫♩♪

actually both palm r having calluses too... y? 
hmmm... it related to the information below tat i wish to share wif u guys~


how much do u noe about rubber tapping? 
have u ever tried it before? =)


Rubber tapping is a hard work. 
It can starts as early as 2 am. serious~!!!! 
The coolness of the early morning air encourages the latex to flow thus improving the yield.
However, the tapping will continue until late morning. T_T 
do u believe tat it could take almost 9hours, for tapping and collecting process?!!
but its depend on how big is the plantation area.... 


A special tapping knife is used to shear off a thin layer of rubber tree's bark. if u dono hw does it look lik... here's the pic...

during the "cutting" process... care must be taking not to cut too deep as this would injure the tree. better practice few times b4 u make a real cut.... 
"boss" wil get mad and worker wil kena scold once he found tat you r "hurting" the rubber tree... 
T_T haiz....
Each night a rubber tapper must remove a thin layer of bark along a downward half spiral on the tree trunk. 

If done carefully and with skill, this tapping panel will yield latex for up to 5 years.

we usually cut it in spiral cox it allow the latex flow down to a collecting cup.

now did u realize that y the work must be done at night? so tat the latex will run longer before drying out....

The 2nd step is collect those "milky liquid".... do not feel tat tis step is more relax~ u hav to collect it from row to row, and if ur tub is almost full, u have to walk all the way bc to pit stop just to empty it...
cox as it bcome more n more heavy, it wil slow you down...cox deplete a lot of energy.... =(
Lastly, the latex will pour into molds and formic acid is added to coagulate the liquid latex.... 




Frankly, tapping of latex from a rubber tree is really a skilled job because a tapper has to make a cut which is only approximately 2 mm deep. do u think u can finished the job easily? especially do it under a dark environment...
by the way, latex doesn't smell lik fresh milk though it look lik.... u have to take minimum 45minutes in bath room to get off the "smell of money".... 
yup~ some1 said tat to me b4.... 
“ 橡胶汁很臭，那～钱臭不臭？” ( if latex is stinky, than how does money smell like? )
did u get wat he trying to interpret? 
=) congratulation if yes~

♪ how could it be?????

gosh..... it should be a nice & memorable weekend.... hw can i spoiled it ?!


T_T sorry.... 
i do try my best to b a professional tuorist guard + buddy... 
however, things doesn't go smoothly.... 
pls believe me, i'm nt showing my -tive side in front of u purposely.... 

i never expect tat i wil hav such reaction... its actually a serious problem for me!!! 
its another phobia!!! 
i was frightened by my own reaction.... whenever i pick it up and try to enjoy the song....
tears started to burst.... 
i am just too tired... i need a shoulder.... can some1 lend me that?? 
how much/how long i can stand for "it"?


i started to feel tat... v hav a gap in between... and the gap is growing......
such feeling is putting me into moody.... =( mayb its a fact, a fact that no1 can doubt it....

i noe every1 wil hav their own destiny, live wil stil go on and  sun wil stil rise...
will try to accept wat is actually happening in my life.... 
no matter it is good or the other way round....


dun worry.... i think what i need is just a corridor to relief the stress.... 

ph3be, u'll overcome those difficulties~!!

*update*
想通了！把每次的练习当成免费的唱K娱乐，轻松面对， 而不是把唱K的娱乐时光当做严肃的练习！
=D

hApPy belated ApRiLfOol~

5th April 2010

okayy... no doubt i'm a lazy student,who always ponteng since i bcame a Utarian.... =p

so as usual, i was staying at home n plan to update my blog....

"ring, ring...." i phone was rang.......

i was totally freaking out whn i gt a phone call frm my classmate who telling me tat i kena barred for R.M.

o.O

she told me that whn the time she walked in to the lecture hall, she heard our LOVELY lecturer Mr.Wong, announced something... & my name was called..... so i immediately call up Miss Ally, who oso a ponteng kaki, =p

both of us decided to rush into campus to meet up our dearest lecturer.... =_=''

after making the inquiries, v found tat it was just a JOKE~!!!!! frm mr.Wong.... ish~!!!! his lame joke is making me mad lah~ Argh~!!!

in fact, i has been chosen by him for being 1 of the presenter during next week lecture class.... apa lah ni~ making ppl kena heart attack lOh~ =p

and now~ i am back ~ teehee.... so wil stil continue wif my plan....

04-04-2010

y3ah~ tasty potato salad frm my bab3~

Thx Q~ miss Ally for preparing the salad for me~

though its cold, bt i feel warm when i'm eating...

those photos r taken during 08-0302010, international womens' day~ =P

38 lOh~ teehee....

recently i was busying for lots of things.... its all about music~ =)

although it SERIOUSLY doesn't seem lik wat i expected previously ....

i felt defeat, frustrated n even cried.... but i'm clear wif wat i'm doing right now....

i noe wat i wan & i wil chase it until i'm done~!!!!

y3aH~ classical guitar......

30-3-2010

I had my vry 1^st guitar lesson tis afternoon….. =)

Luckily I hav Mr Isaac yeong as my sifu~ who is good in controlling EQ n able to teach in patience.

By the way, I hav to take tis opportunity to say “thx Q~ Mr.Isaac” for lending me his precious guitar~ which is a classical guitar wif nylon-string…. Though its seems a little bit over-size for me… cox my fingers r too short~ =(

I learn a lot frm him…lik chords, frets, pick, the 6strings…EADGBE… & bla~bla~bla~ teehee…my fingertips feel pain n they r red-in color nw… T_T but I stil enjoy the lesson…. Hope tat I can keep work on it~

hmm.... i think its time to get myself a guitar.... a guitar tat belongs to ph3be~ =)

Ph3be, never let bad influence affect ur mood & even ur spirit~!!! n_n

29 mArch 2010

hmm.... feel tired now~ so b4 i go for mY dAt3 wif "Mr. ZhaO", lets conteng-conteng my "sKy" 1st... teehee...

these few days r damn tired.... cox i almost jogged at least 1hr per day... now my leg muscle is bcum stronger n stronger jor... =(

by the way, i went to ipoh again & almost lost while v r heading bc to kampar~ =D

but luckily i reached safely lOh~~ =p

y3ah~ finally i gt my own mp3.... i was wanted to buy since long long time ago~ hahaha.... though it loOks a bit out-of-date.....bt i lov it~ & wil appreciate it~ cox i dun prefer the 1 wif better functionalities n trendy outlook~ wat for?? my main purpose is to enjoy the rhythm, nt to show off....

=)

those r photos tat i toke by today~ my fren always complain tat: " y u always lik to add-in some words or cartoon inside ur pic?"

hehe...

Erm, for me lah~ by adding such icon wil provide viewer the emotional attributes tat i trying to attach in & they may feel more lively in tat pic~ n_n

p/s: b4 i click "publish" button, something happened.... make me feel a bit down... haiz.... i tot tat could hav a hapi ending in tis post~ bt thn... ended up wif sad mood~ T_T Phebe, u will b ok soon~ 55 go slp bah~ >.<

♥ it's fOR U~ Bab3 shervyn~ ♥

Okayy~ it's time to upload these photos to my blog now~ n_n

if u stil remember, 1of my fb status i mention b4.... i did sumthing to surprise my babe, and wil update here whn the time is come~

=) now is the best time ~

i lov tis~

the cute doll is our 21st b'day gift for each others.... =)

ppl may asked, y r u contributing so much for her 22th b'day celebration?

erm.... 1st, i did it nt bcox of the figure of"22th".... =p

2nd, she gain a lot recently..... she gain the experience of hw to b tougher when ppl r trying hard to beat her down....

therefore, i'm here to show her "there r more than 100ppl trying to love u, protect u & appreciate u rather than hurting u !!" =D

3rd, i realize that v should express our lov & tell the person b4 it's too late...... =)

shuang~ thx for being my BFF..... thx for accompany me when i need some1, especially 25th of march 2010, i wil never 4gt about the situation !!!! =D

hope our friendship wil bright shining as the sun shine....