♥ Girls should know...

男人没有你想象的那样好，可以真爱，但不要深爱，在爱情里为自己留个退路，否则受伤时会措手不及。

这个世界上，最值得你爱的，除了父母，只有你自己。

爱情不是追来的，所以，永远不要认为被男孩追是理所当然的。但是，你对他的考验是必须的。

当一个清高的女孩遇到一个高傲的男孩时，总有一个人会卑微下来，但是如果可以, 不要把自己放得太低。

一个女人的品位在于她身边站着一个怎样品位的男人。女人一生最成功的事情之一，便是选了一个对的男人。

在爱情里，永远不要抱怨什么。

爱情，是需要用心经营的。

恋爱也是一门艺术.

By 

乐嘉老师

7天6夜～ i've learn to share.....

.
pheew~
finally the climax has comes to the peak & everything is slowing down....

i do enjoy my 6 nights in the "freezer" wif my lovely papa~
n wat i had discovered from tis "trip" is that.....
reading a story book for a kid is more easier than reading a "story book" for elderly people.
Lolx~

1st, u hav to make sure that the reading material is suitable for ur "target",
next, u'll need to change those words a bit....make the "story" sounds more friendly n easy to understand,
plus, u hav to control ur volume & tone~ so that they won feel bOred when u r reading~
tis may also help to encourage 2ways communication ~
the more interactive during the story telling, the better it is~

here is the differences whn our target is elder ppl. =)
cox whn v r reading for the kids, our major purpose is to make them fall asleep....
while to the elder, v r actually trying to communicate wif them n noe wat's in their mind....
seriously~ its useful.... =)
of course u dun treat them lik a baby ~ dont do it in a too formal way, lik "i'm gonna read this thing to my old man", but make it looks lik a conversation and the "story" is only a tool for u to connect wif them~ =)
after u started off wif the topic, u may try to switch the "story line" into ur real life experience or own opinion and then "the target" may willing to share their experience too....
that is y, the opening topic is important.... so~ be aware whn u choosing the reading materials.
hehe~ do some "research" on ur target b4 u take action....

For those who wish to reconnect wif some1 tat is important in ur life....
phebe thinks that "story telling" would b an alternative for u guys~
=)

finally, i realize.....

我终于知道了～！
我知道是什么
让我担忧、焦虑、失眠、闷闷不乐、茶饭不思、半夜独自在泪海中清醒过来的原因了！！

可能是之前的打击吧？！ 三年前的“惊吓” 导致我害怕再次失去熟悉的至爱……
或许你会说：“没那么严重吧？”
三年前，我失去了一个喜欢没事就拨电给我聊天，
喜欢吩咐我跑跑腿，
喜欢关心我在外地的生活作息，
喜欢偶尔买些我最爱的零食来哄哄我，
喜欢经常大声嚷嚷地指责孩子们的不是…… 的母亲……
幸运的是……她依然还在我身边～
唯一不同的是，她，已经不是那个她了……
你们可想过，一个十八、九岁的黄毛丫头，
一夜之间从人间掉落到谷底的情景是多么的残忍啊？！
我只能说……一切只因为突如其来的病状……
而产生了360度的变化……当然也包括了我的人生。

所以近一个星期我都没睡好的原因是因为担心25号的到来……
刚刚给他打了通电话，提醒他禁食，收拾必须品等。

对，这次只不过是个中型的手术……不会牵扯到任何生命危险……
但是，我再也不想体验失去熟悉的至亲……我也承受不起了……
他是我的一切！！！我的精神支柱！！！
倘若不是他，我不会有今天，我不会熬到现在，
他为孩子们撑起了半边天……
他的伟大是我三天三夜也无法叙述得完……

唉！正如我之前的文章所说～ 非言语能表达的，
又或者是我的文字运用得有限吧？！
我不确定大家是否能从文字中，了解我现在的心情，
但至少我现在舒服多了……

再会～！！！ =）


masa dulu~ hah !!
it reminds me on those days....

http://phebe-chai.blog.friendster.com/

一个陌生人

做了一个梦……
没想到竟然再次梦见你……

梦境大纲：
当时我处在一个非常紧急的状况，超害怕，超无助……
突然，你出现了！你向我伸出援手，帮了我……
最后，你牵着我，带我回到一个让我很安心、温暖的家……

这就是一直以来，你在我心目中的形象……
我们从未正面交锋，但你却足以让我牵挂……
无可否认地……在我心中……你曾拥有过一席之地，
但你从来也只爱“纸上谈兵”……
我倦了……
所以我把你放在脑海里最深的堡垒……

可能最近发生了一些让我觉得无助的事吧～
我的潜意识把你从堡垒放了出来……
让你演出一场英雄救美的戏码，
其实当我一醒来的那一刻，我是开心的，
然后是落寞……

我知道梦归梦，
一切回归正常，
你还是你，我还是我，
各自过着自己的生活……

在这里我想借此机会祝福你……
愿你天天开心，
享受你所向往的生活，
祝福你与你的家人健健康康……

糖果……

11月22日   约凌晨2点    晴


面子书的status：
开始觉得...　担忧...焦虑...不安... 希望一切顺利...　
突然好想提醒大家: "树欲静,而风不止;子欲养,而亲不再"

23日
我以为大家都很成熟、懂事……
结果还是……

朋友曾经劝告过我，别老是把责任往身上扛……
你们错了…… 不是我逞强，也不是我鸡婆、爱面子……
没有人希望自己的身上背着一个比自己还要来得重的“糖果”……
是糖果吗？哈～！
与其说是负担，不如选择乐观点看待某些事物……
这样的措词，或许会让我比较好过…… =）


每个人都有自己的宿命……
换句话说，每个人都有不同大小的“糖果”……
我们不能做比较（谁的比谁大/重），因为每个人的“体力”都不相同，
重要的是，那糖果……是你能撑得住的吗？
我……能吗？

Candies or Drugs? Swe3t or BitTer?

刚刚和老爸通了电…… 突然有股心酸，
总觉得自己太无能了……
怎么办呢？有些东西是非言语所能诠释的……
只有当事人最了解……

没法子了…… 唯有找个管道来抒发、抒发……
现在呢～ 只能希望一切掌控在我预期之内～
呵呵…………（冷笑）

Nov 18th

r u hapi?

wil u feel bad when there is something out there....
which manipulate ur emotion? whether it's directly or indirectly....

maybe tat's the pay back....
pay back for the effort of pursuing happiness?
maybe....

its depend....
depend on how u perceive it,
how u manage it,
how much u willing to sacrifice for it?
and....
the degree of acceptance?

some ppl able to accept it blindly, just to avoid conflict.....
some may take defensive action, just to maintain their comfort zone.....

10 Nov 2010

hmm.... i'm nt hapPy~
=(

something's changing....

something is changing in my recent life.....
the percentage of the "something" is nt tat little as i tot.....
how to say huh? hmm.... the impact of the "changes" would b vry huge....

i don't noe whether its a good sign or the other way round.....
it suppose to b blessed, sweet, warm, happiness.....
bt somehow it brings me negative feeling....
i guess its de nature of the "change".... since everything oso hav + or - factors rite?
it just tat how u gonna adapt to it.... am i right? =P
ppl will automatically tend to make some adjustment whn they feel uncomfortable will the changes.....

u'll never noe wats gonna b the next.....
and v stil cant make any statement for it in tis moment....
so just try to enjoy n cherish the "change".....
Adjustment?! or  Avoidance?!
hahaha

11th August 2010

yup~ its 5am early in the morning....

why am i stil here?? burning night oil for revision?? 

naahh~ i rather pps-ing... XP

bt seriously~ i couldn't slp well~ =(

wats da reason huh?? can sum1 pls find out for me~?

its quite serious u noe? 

cox lots of terrible subsequences will gradually appear..... 

(should i attach bc-ground music which often heard frm horror movie?!)


Let's share some info that i gt frm da internet....

i) first n foremost, of course~ mY "beauty" is no longer wif me, though i'm nt tat leng lui~ but the worse thing is... i'm bcum more n more "nt tat leng lui" !!! i'm bcuming panda n pimples r all around my face.... how sad i am?! =(

ii) diabetes

a study shown that ppl who habitually slept few hours were more likely to have associations with Diabetes~

however this research result was uncertain. =p

iii) effect on da brain

lack of Zzz cause the brain and cognitive function. The brain to become incapable of putting an emotional event into the proper perspective and incapable of making a controlled, suitable response to the event.

it also increases stress hormones, which may reduce new cell production in adult brains. 

o.O sound horrible huh?

iv) effect on da healing process

a research was found that a group of sample has better ability to heal wounds, compared to the other group which doesn't slp well..... =(

v) microsleeps

means that our brain automatically shuts down, falling into a sleep state for a period that can last 10 to 60 seconds. The person mentally falls asleep no matter what activity he or she is engaged in. 

The main point is a person experiencing so called, microsleep, is not consciously aware that they are occurring.

so pls DO NOT blame me if u saw me doing things wrongly or din wave my hand/show u my sw3etest smile when i see u around~!!!  XD

i guess, you may WAKE me UP~!!! this would b helpful.

vii) weight gain / loss

insomnia can increase both food intake and energy expenditure, but due to hormone imbalance, it may lead to weight gain as well.... =(

OMG~ this is the most serious effect that i concern about.... HELP~!!!

cLick?

recently... it has been a roller coaster of emotions for me....
i'm hapi, angry, excited, joyful, sad, anxious, and grievance....
i'm now physically n mentally exhausted....

hmm.... i wonder wat wil i be if i choose nt to proceed my studies last time....
wil i gt an offer frm IPTA to proceed wif my teaching carrer??
wil i stil b together wif my lovely students over there?

i noe~ i'm thinking too  too much over here....
should look into current situation~ stop dreaming~
plan for my future base on my capabilities.....











haiz.... u noe y ppl feel emo?? y human hav emotions?
v hav positive n negative emo-programs rite?
whn something happened which is wat u expect/want/acquire for, thn u'l automatically turn on ur positive mode,
while if it's against ur thought or below ur expectations, the negative 1 wil b working....

hmm... how i wish i could hav a neutral button....
it might brings a better me, will it ??

can i change my emo-program 

by just a click on the button??

relaxing... =)

it has been few weeks.....

finally i gt to 3njoy my time wif pinky rAbbit + air-con + lov3ly pillow.

the 1st thing i did whn i gt home of course was

giv my little princess a warm hug hug + big kiss kiss~!!!

teehee

did u see that?

she grimaced while i'm taking tis photo

=P

ok~ guess i'll need to give her some tutorials about manner,

so that she won pee on me again when i shower her...

=(

hahahahaha!!!!!!

missing u~ u~ u~ & u~!!! =)

20th July 2010

hmmmm...... i'm sick~!!! home sick~!!! =(

hopefully i can going bc tis weekend....

u noe wat? i get some new stuff for Ivy~ =D

i went to tesco after my test, feel sad after sit for the test... ='(

thn i saw those QQ baby girl romper~

it grabbed my attention....so i just randomly stop by n took a glance,

i din expect tat i'll buy anything about tat,

n yet~ i gt 2 for the Th3 Eight... =D

i dono whether it's fit or nt.... =p

1 is for new born babies, another 1 is for 12months-baby....

cox i noe tat babies r growing super fast~ tats y i prepare the Q outfit for her ad...

=)

of course i do miss my papa mama also.... =)

but the baby is too cute until i cant get her out of my mind.... ^0^

the feelings of missing sum1 is nt tat gd....

i rather there is always some1 who missing me....

yup~ i'm afraid of tat.... 

afraid of everything which related wif r..at.o.ship....

i'm just a coward....=( 

♫♪ wAka-WaKA ♫♪ mY 1st F3VeR

WoO~ seriously i never thought that i could b such in lOv3 wif FIFA World Cup 2010.... =D

it was my 1st time to get into the excitement of Football matches.... 

hmm... i noe nothing about soccer actually....bt at least now i learn a little bit about it.... =D 

from zero to.... erm 50% gua~ must b humble a bit rite? XP hahaa.... still lots of stuff tat i tak tau~  

 

y3ah~ my 1st jersey.....

watched the Argentina vs Germany match wif uni kaki~ =D

Luckily i've gt numbers of sources which could provide me the reliable info about FIFA2010 XD

y'day as usual i went to mamak again wif mY private kaki Miss Ally to support our favorite team, Spain!! 

the crowd was HUGE~ !!!

it's mission impossible to get a seat for those who come late. Some even bring their own chairs to mamak n order drinks~  . >.<''.

v r the lucky early birds~ whn the time v reached was 90% full jor....yet v stil gt the "luxury view" table~ right in front the screen~ y3ah~~!!! =)

okayy.... it was super memorable~ every1 is shouting, cheering, clapping around.... i lik the "gan jeong" atmosphere~ hahahaha....

but the worse part was the rain started to drop when extra time is given... =( i'm getting cooler n cooler, my eyes r smaller n smaller jor... haha... 

luckily Iniesta scores in extra time to give spain its 1st World Cup~ \^0^! Bravo~

Andres Iniesta,
lovely kick~ hahahha...

GoaL~~ =D

hmm... the Netherlands coach was pointing at the referee, Howard Webb.

y huh?? XD

PoOr Alonso was kicked by Nigel De Jong ... ish~!!!

i hate de jong!!!

Xabi Alonso grimace in pain.... Oww.... =(

hehe... those r some pic of my favorite players =p

yup~ its mY David Villa + Iker Casillas  n_n

y3ah~ cheers for Spain warriors~!!! =D

it's 5am, while
3very1 stand up n applaud.

my fren n i were already on the way to gt the car while clapping for the heroes... 

i can sure that i'll miss my uni-life during the next FIFA World Cup 2014....

Ally, see whether or nt v gt a chance for another f3ver 2gether again... =P

♥ Ivy

yEah~it's 8th of july....

=)

it's her completion of its 1st month of life~

seriously, i totally 4gt about tis until i received mms frm my sis in-law.... =D

cox my schedule is full since last wk... it wil b packed until next wk even.... 

u noe wat? i hav 3 x (assignment + presentation ) + 3 midterm test - 1 presentation - 1 midterm test

bside, i've beenrush for few partiesss recently, karen's 21st bash party + UTAR bash party + FIFA gila-gila parties ~~~ ect.

=( it's vry tiring lOh!!! but i do enjoy it~ =D

okayy, gt bc to my topic.... =) according to chinese traditional rules or apa-apa..... she hav to shave her lovely dark hair.... even her eyebrow....on that day....  pity-nya~ 

but i saw her new style was SUPER DUPER Q~!!!!!

Jeng~ 

  

      Jeng~       

Jeng~!!!!

can u imagine that hw cute the Baby is~ when she's smiling? yawning? or even crying? =D

lov her chubby face so much~~ muAcKkz~!!!

hope she is getting healthier n healthier + fatter n fatter....

her 1st shot on 8th of June

now she's turning into cuter n cuter =D

Lastly, i wish all sickness r away from my baby n may happiness increase with age~ n_n

你的荣幸。。。我的悲哀。。。

唉～ 太不争气了～！！！
这样的情况怎么可能发生在我身上？！ 它也从未发生过。。。。
太离谱了～！！！
我必须做些什么来应付呢？


这种心情不好受，等待、期望、失落、纳闷、胡思乱想...
我快受不了了～！！！
真的太不可思议了....
我不曾预计原来我也有这样的一天....
可是还好，我认为这只不过是个过渡期，很快的，一切将回复正常...
一定是这样！！！ =）




向来果断的我，决定快刀斩乱麻，干脆连根拔起！！！ 哈哈哈～
好久没用我的母语来抒发心情了..... 觉得怪怪的...... =P

好吧～！！！ 收拾心情，期盼着雨过天晴的到来吧！！！

你～！！再见！！！

p/s: congratulation for ur "achievement" but sorry to say tat, u've received a red card frm me...

hmm...

hmmm... i realize tat something fade in my life gradually....

when?? how?? Y ah?? 

how come it happen to me??

i dun think its a good sign for me but cant tag on wif negative sign oso...

i found myself at a loss for what should i do next?? how should i perceive tis sign huh??

i don't wish to put myself into troubles again...

wil it b burdensome ?? or the other way round ??

p/s: i think such feeling is cause by limited information about the object.... am i right? teehee....
it's a complicated feelings.... 

project bf... =p

25th June =)

i went bc to my kampung for "Project bf ".... Lolx....

wat's "bf" stand for ?? actually few weeks ago, goh goh informed me tat v r going to postpone the fathers' day celebration and bring forward baba's birthday celebration.... =D
can u see the "b" + "f" ?? =p

26th dinner preparation....

see~ wat i made for my family again?? =D daddy's favorite prAwn~ ^^

ohyA~ 2weeks ago, i've ordered a massage chair for my daddy....

of course i'm nt the 1 who pay for it lah... since i'm stil a student~ lol....

but i'm the 1 who search info, call up, inquired.....

100 point for my effort~ =P

luckily it happen to deliver at the same day, after our dinner... =)

see~ daddy n mummy r so hapi~

27th mAkaN CakE c3remOnY... XD

v sang a birthday song for daddy n enjoy the cake in the next day.... b4 i heading to kampar~

luckily no "negative incident" happen during this weekend....

everything goes smoothly.... n_n

Oooww~ i 4gt to announce about my niece no. 8th~!!! =D

she is my dad's 8th grandchildren... so called "The Eight".... does it indicate a lucky or prosperity??

if u're a Chinese or Cantonese, u'll get wat i mean... teehee....

her name is Ivy~ she is super Q~ n active.... =)

i got few videos about "The Eighth" bt i selected tis 1 which i took it whn mum is holding her... =)

n tis is the only video tat i able to hav a "closeup" ^_^

p/s: pls make sure tat ur speaker volume is at moderate level b4 u view it.... 
sorry for the annoying "background-music"....even myself oso feel sick wif tat voice.... muahahhahaha

heartache... no1 does it but u...

12th...13th...14th....
iT seems to be hectic n full of excitement....
but things go differently whn i were bc to my domain....
iT wasn't appear in they way that i thought it should b......






i noe... dun let it overcome ourselves bt v should overcome it....
anyhow, i'm just a normal girl who has emotions....
just let it b... watever.... feel downhearted wif those troubles tat i couldn't changed....

can i? wil i? should i? hah... i hav the answer with me....

woOW~ i'm loving it~

7.00am to 8.00am  jogging time~!!!! n_n 
luckily miss shuang keep "pushing" me for this exercise....
i feel rejoice for her stamina... XD
after tat i hav to gt myself ready for the morning lecture within 70minutes...

10am to 12pm
having "fun" wif Mr Bobby Chai, our cutest lecturer ever.... he taught us to say "how r u?" by using our fingertip... haha....

12pm to 2pm
having "fun" at Utar Gym room.... ^_*
gosh~ although it is exhausting.... but i already fall for it....
thn i have to run to Block D cox the moment i finished my class was 2.10pm jor....
i dun wan to miss out the bus loh~
if nt i hav to wait at campus wif my stinking baju~ =p
luckily i'm still able to gt on~ =)

whn the time i reached home,and after i'm done wif my shower,washed my stinking baju n so on..... its already 3.10pm =(
i plan to take a nap but thn i havent take my lunch !!! wat to do? if i slp after my meal for sure it is not a "wise" decision right? =p
so at the and i choose to makan fruit 1st, thn only take my meal after my sweet dream...
=D
as i always mention, sometimes things r just out of our control..... mayb i'm too tired ad... i was over slept~ >.<
so my "Project-Lunch" was failed to implement.... cox i kena rush for my next appointment....=p

4.00pm to 5.00pm guitar lesson~
its great to learn additional theories n techniques, but the problem is.... i'm too slow.... =(
hmm.... must spend more time on it to improve my skill... +u~ +u~ !!!

luckily i stil have 2hours to enjoy my meal b4 the next program
=)

7.00pm to 10.30pm
i'm having a lot of "fun" in studio this time.... but the main problem is stil there.... wat am i gonna do?
practice practice n practice, listen listen n listen.... tats the only way... ish~ i dono y i stil unable to make it correctly n perfectly... feel quite sorry to him.... hehe.... but i'll never give up!!!!!! ^_*

pheww~ wat a rich n colorful day i have~ =D 

byebye my year2sem3....

woOw~ lots of things happened during these few weeks.... n now its time to get ready for a new semester.... haiz... which stories should i go 1st? =p

okay~ after the final exam(12th), i went to penang n i had my vry 1st experience to hav fun in MOIS n TGIF.... the trip was fun.... 

when i reached kampar(13th), i was surprised by my bab3 wif birthday song, colorful balloons, n huge box in my room. as u can see frm my previous post, the light in my room in turned off~ =p

she bought me a box of Q-size cake n a lovely SantaCruz guitar~

can u imagine that how touch it is?? she did everything for me on the day b4 she is going to sit for her exam paper ?! T_T thank you my dear.... 

thx for supporting my dream.... i wil never give up~!!!! ur gift will motivating me along the path to my dream....

the next day(14th), i receive another surprise frm another lovely girl.... =)

i went bc to ayer tawar to enjoy my sem break until 27th May, cox Mario's wedding will b held at 29th. 

so i hav to come bc earlier for "preparation" ^_*

whn i gt bc to kampar, i realize tat my house is "empty"... i mean, i'm the only1 in the three-story house... T_T scary man!!! ='( but luckily i just hav to stand for few days n my housemate will b here soon... 

i was having fun during these few days wil my kawan-kawan.... especially on 29th of may~ 

for morning session, i hav to wake up at 7.30am n get myself ready to join in Elaine's crew, as "ji mui" =D it was my 1st time....my feeling was complicated, happy + nervous + excited ..... =)

here r some of the pic during the morning session... XD 

the gentlemen were kena trick lik monkey~ wakaka!!!!!!!

thn jasmine n i went to a saloon during the afternoon, i hav no idea what's going to happen to my hair when the time i walked in.... finally...

the dinner was awesome~ lots of coOl band r perform during that night~ its more lik a music concert rather than a conventional wedding dinner.... =)

and i get my 1st experience to "having fun" on the stage during Mario and Elaine's wedding dinner... hehe... although it wasn't impressive, but i'm sure its comical... =p

after mario's big day~ i went to ipoh for Prince of Persia wif ally~

OMG~ prince Dastan is so "man"... n the ngbaka~ =p i'm nt sure whether i spell it right or nt~ teehee.....

love the story n the ending.... 

if u view my previous post b4, u should noe tat i was attracted by few movies, but at the end, Prince of Persia is the only 1 tat i able to enjoy it in cinema~ =(

anyway, its nice to watch~