th3 Princess?!

i'm HOME...
i'm back to a place that provide me a warm bed + nice foods...
it even provides me laughters, happiness & comfyy~.
it's like a castle for me,
it's the only place that i could act like a "Princess".... or a "sleeping Beauty" perhaps?! =D

i believe some of u may feel the same way like me,
when u wake up in the morning, the breakfast r there for u~
when u feel boring, some1 will always b there to chat wif u~
when u feel happy, they will clap their hand & cheer wif u~
when u r sad or emo, they will hook u up wif classical crap jokes~ （绝世经典冷笑话）
when u feel lazy, some1 will give u a hand & ur name will b eliminated frm "housework schedule" =P




Being a "Princess" doesn't mean that i'll have 2k per month as my pocket money~
for me, it just as simple as daddy mummy able to pamper me when i need them,
when i feel lik wana eat "char kuew tiao" they just buy it for me,
when i feel lik lazy to hav my breakfast, they'll scold me & force me at least drink a glass of milk~
etc...
that's "princess" enough for me. =))
Even Disney princesses have different kind of lives + characters, it depends on how u view it
or shall i say:"which 1 do u wish to b~" 
Jasmine, Belle, Ariel, Cinderella, Aurora and Snow White? =P

mY perception changed through out these few years,
10 years ago, i would used "incomplete" / "unhappy" / "noisy" / "complicated"
those kind of words to describe my family.
i believe that people around me notice about tat... my changes.


"Do my Best & bring them to a better life" -- is my current mindset. =) i'll appreciate what i hav rather thn complaining "why i cant hav a simpler live just like the others?!"




We're gonna Build-up "things" on our own,
things that v acquire for but doesn't "currently" exist in our life.
Guys, life is full of challenges, that's y it's fun & colourful~
=D
Don't u agree wif me?! *wink



♥  phebe

i knew it....

as wat i had predicted, those situations really happen....
it just lik Earthquake aftermath,which causes damage on human's properties + industrial facilities + development of particular countries....
the difference here is it affecting mY patience + mY happiness + mY family + mY friends & even mY life!!!



i don see any reason for me to show my madness & tears in front of the public,
but somehow i did cox i couldn't stand any more,
it only shows in front of those who close wif me....



although i had mentioned that i don care how people perceived me as a human being,
but it still affect my EQ in some way,
wat i'm gona say is, thanks for putting such effort & concentration on me, as a normal person, i feel the "prestige" & the spotlight around me.
 What a jOke....



any way, i stil retain the previous me!
i dono why some of those can't see the fact here...
when ur house is on-fire, fireman + water would b very helpful or it could be said that its necessity.
what if when there is a flood ??? & u still provide me fireman + water, does it making any sense?
the point here is when "the value" isn't a demand (or needs) thn it no longer perceive as "a value"....
similarly wif "u ask a doctor to defend innocence, while ask a Lawyer to conduct a surgery"





20th March
yesterday wasn't a Gd day for me,
some conflicts btw my dad & bro r still occur as usual....
it brings me to a more determined thoughts!!


people, life doesn't have a reset button & it doesn't have a take 2,
so pls appreciate ur precious time to achieve ur goals~!!!

Good Luck every1~! 

Never hurt the heart that ♥ you

I'm so tired of obstacles that around me recently,

Lots of bad things happened,

sad news from Japan.... so many lives lost....

few things bump into me at the same time, make me confuse with mY PrincipaL~

i started to feel that "decision making" isn't that easy.... since when?

i always thought that it was just a piece of cake~ 

=D 

mayb i shall happy cox it indicates that my mind is growing-up & i see things differently. 

A piece of Pie thn... XP

16th March

just finish with my International Biz. presentation, i suppose to feel grateful & proud,

1 of my beloved tutor, Mr. Lawrence said something good on my performance...

but i found that it doesn't makes my heart smile, though its a good news for me... 

=(

i have been told that "ppl shall appreciate whatever u have in ur life"

does it means that we shall just sit back & waiting for something comes into ur life, no matter good or bad?!

i thought i'm clear enough with my aim & goal in my life,

too bad to say that.... i'm not actually....

people may lost in some way,

but i Do confirm that...

When my hope is fading & i'm losing the fight

some1 will definitely be there for me

: )

there he is~  mY superman!!!

U may love the heart that hurts u...

but never hurt the heart that loves you...

Thank You to Everyone

 who Loves me ♥

2011 March 8th

讨厌的心情……
复杂的心情……
是焦虑、是担忧、是不舍、是不甘……

我真的不是赌气吗？不是逞强吗？
姓蔡的，你好歹也拿起你的勇气吧？！
就这样……错过了吗？

熟悉与陌生的定义是什么？我不知道……
未来的日子，谁也不能预测，
再遗憾、再不安，一切仿佛已成定局……
我……还能扭转乾坤吗？
我……有能力吗？有资格吗？


就让一切顺着漂泊……
就让泪珠顺势飘流……
直到黎明……

9th March

昨晚做了一个恶魔，  
很真实，也很讽刺的梦，

但梦里的我却很无助……  

醒的时候，我仍然觉得恐慌，

忍不住，泪水涌出心头……

才发现，  

原来我的泪，是发自内心深处……

我真的害怕！

7天6夜～ i've learn to share.....

.
pheew~
finally the climax has comes to the peak & everything is slowing down....

i do enjoy my 6 nights in the "freezer" wif my lovely papa~
n wat i had discovered from tis "trip" is that.....
reading a story book for a kid is more easier than reading a "story book" for elderly people.
Lolx~

1st, u hav to make sure that the reading material is suitable for ur "target",
next, u'll need to change those words a bit....make the "story" sounds more friendly n easy to understand,
plus, u hav to control ur volume & tone~ so that they won feel bOred when u r reading~
tis may also help to encourage 2ways communication ~
the more interactive during the story telling, the better it is~

here is the differences whn our target is elder ppl. =)
cox whn v r reading for the kids, our major purpose is to make them fall asleep....
while to the elder, v r actually trying to communicate wif them n noe wat's in their mind....
seriously~ its useful.... =)
of course u dun treat them lik a baby ~ dont do it in a too formal way, lik "i'm gonna read this thing to my old man", but make it looks lik a conversation and the "story" is only a tool for u to connect wif them~ =)
after u started off wif the topic, u may try to switch the "story line" into ur real life experience or own opinion and then "the target" may willing to share their experience too....
that is y, the opening topic is important.... so~ be aware whn u choosing the reading materials.
hehe~ do some "research" on ur target b4 u take action....

For those who wish to reconnect wif some1 tat is important in ur life....
phebe thinks that "story telling" would b an alternative for u guys~
=)

finally, i realize.....

我终于知道了～！
我知道是什么
让我担忧、焦虑、失眠、闷闷不乐、茶饭不思、半夜独自在泪海中清醒过来的原因了！！

可能是之前的打击吧？！ 三年前的“惊吓” 导致我害怕再次失去熟悉的至爱……
或许你会说：“没那么严重吧？”
三年前，我失去了一个喜欢没事就拨电给我聊天，
喜欢吩咐我跑跑腿，
喜欢关心我在外地的生活作息，
喜欢偶尔买些我最爱的零食来哄哄我，
喜欢经常大声嚷嚷地指责孩子们的不是…… 的母亲……
幸运的是……她依然还在我身边～
唯一不同的是，她，已经不是那个她了……
你们可想过，一个十八、九岁的黄毛丫头，
一夜之间从人间掉落到谷底的情景是多么的残忍啊？！
我只能说……一切只因为突如其来的病状……
而产生了360度的变化……当然也包括了我的人生。

所以近一个星期我都没睡好的原因是因为担心25号的到来……
刚刚给他打了通电话，提醒他禁食，收拾必须品等。

对，这次只不过是个中型的手术……不会牵扯到任何生命危险……
但是，我再也不想体验失去熟悉的至亲……我也承受不起了……
他是我的一切！！！我的精神支柱！！！
倘若不是他，我不会有今天，我不会熬到现在，
他为孩子们撑起了半边天……
他的伟大是我三天三夜也无法叙述得完……

唉！正如我之前的文章所说～ 非言语能表达的，
又或者是我的文字运用得有限吧？！
我不确定大家是否能从文字中，了解我现在的心情，
但至少我现在舒服多了……

再会～！！！ =）


masa dulu~ hah !!
it reminds me on those days....

http://phebe-chai.blog.friendster.com/

糖果……

11月22日   约凌晨2点    晴


面子书的status：
开始觉得...　担忧...焦虑...不安... 希望一切顺利...　
突然好想提醒大家: "树欲静,而风不止;子欲养,而亲不再"

23日
我以为大家都很成熟、懂事……
结果还是……

朋友曾经劝告过我，别老是把责任往身上扛……
你们错了…… 不是我逞强，也不是我鸡婆、爱面子……
没有人希望自己的身上背着一个比自己还要来得重的“糖果”……
是糖果吗？哈～！
与其说是负担，不如选择乐观点看待某些事物……
这样的措词，或许会让我比较好过…… =）


每个人都有自己的宿命……
换句话说，每个人都有不同大小的“糖果”……
我们不能做比较（谁的比谁大/重），因为每个人的“体力”都不相同，
重要的是，那糖果……是你能撑得住的吗？
我……能吗？

Candies or Drugs? Swe3t or BitTer?

刚刚和老爸通了电…… 突然有股心酸，
总觉得自己太无能了……
怎么办呢？有些东西是非言语所能诠释的……
只有当事人最了解……

没法子了…… 唯有找个管道来抒发、抒发……
现在呢～ 只能希望一切掌控在我预期之内～
呵呵…………（冷笑）

relaxing... =)

it has been few weeks.....

finally i gt to 3njoy my time wif pinky rAbbit + air-con + lov3ly pillow.

the 1st thing i did whn i gt home of course was

giv my little princess a warm hug hug + big kiss kiss~!!!

teehee

did u see that?

she grimaced while i'm taking tis photo

=P

ok~ guess i'll need to give her some tutorials about manner,

so that she won pee on me again when i shower her...

=(

hahahahaha!!!!!!

missing u~ u~ u~ & u~!!! =)

20th July 2010

hmmmm...... i'm sick~!!! home sick~!!! =(

hopefully i can going bc tis weekend....

u noe wat? i get some new stuff for Ivy~ =D

i went to tesco after my test, feel sad after sit for the test... ='(

thn i saw those QQ baby girl romper~

it grabbed my attention....so i just randomly stop by n took a glance,

i din expect tat i'll buy anything about tat,

n yet~ i gt 2 for the Th3 Eight... =D

i dono whether it's fit or nt.... =p

1 is for new born babies, another 1 is for 12months-baby....

cox i noe tat babies r growing super fast~ tats y i prepare the Q outfit for her ad...

=)

of course i do miss my papa mama also.... =)

but the baby is too cute until i cant get her out of my mind.... ^0^

the feelings of missing sum1 is nt tat gd....

i rather there is always some1 who missing me....

yup~ i'm afraid of tat.... 

afraid of everything which related wif r..at.o.ship....

i'm just a coward....=( 

♥ Ivy

yEah~it's 8th of july....

=)

it's her completion of its 1st month of life~

seriously, i totally 4gt about tis until i received mms frm my sis in-law.... =D

cox my schedule is full since last wk... it wil b packed until next wk even.... 

u noe wat? i hav 3 x (assignment + presentation ) + 3 midterm test - 1 presentation - 1 midterm test

bside, i've beenrush for few partiesss recently, karen's 21st bash party + UTAR bash party + FIFA gila-gila parties ~~~ ect.

=( it's vry tiring lOh!!! but i do enjoy it~ =D

okayy, gt bc to my topic.... =) according to chinese traditional rules or apa-apa..... she hav to shave her lovely dark hair.... even her eyebrow....on that day....  pity-nya~ 

but i saw her new style was SUPER DUPER Q~!!!!!

Jeng~ 

  

      Jeng~       

Jeng~!!!!

can u imagine that hw cute the Baby is~ when she's smiling? yawning? or even crying? =D

lov her chubby face so much~~ muAcKkz~!!!

hope she is getting healthier n healthier + fatter n fatter....

her 1st shot on 8th of June

now she's turning into cuter n cuter =D

Lastly, i wish all sickness r away from my baby n may happiness increase with age~ n_n

project bf... =p

25th June =)

i went bc to my kampung for "Project bf ".... Lolx....

wat's "bf" stand for ?? actually few weeks ago, goh goh informed me tat v r going to postpone the fathers' day celebration and bring forward baba's birthday celebration.... =D
can u see the "b" + "f" ?? =p

26th dinner preparation....

see~ wat i made for my family again?? =D daddy's favorite prAwn~ ^^

ohyA~ 2weeks ago, i've ordered a massage chair for my daddy....

of course i'm nt the 1 who pay for it lah... since i'm stil a student~ lol....

but i'm the 1 who search info, call up, inquired.....

100 point for my effort~ =P

luckily it happen to deliver at the same day, after our dinner... =)

see~ daddy n mummy r so hapi~

27th mAkaN CakE c3remOnY... XD

v sang a birthday song for daddy n enjoy the cake in the next day.... b4 i heading to kampar~

luckily no "negative incident" happen during this weekend....

everything goes smoothly.... n_n

Oooww~ i 4gt to announce about my niece no. 8th~!!! =D

she is my dad's 8th grandchildren... so called "The Eight".... does it indicate a lucky or prosperity??

if u're a Chinese or Cantonese, u'll get wat i mean... teehee....

her name is Ivy~ she is super Q~ n active.... =)

i got few videos about "The Eighth" bt i selected tis 1 which i took it whn mum is holding her... =)

n tis is the only video tat i able to hav a "closeup" ^_^

p/s: pls make sure tat ur speaker volume is at moderate level b4 u view it.... 
sorry for the annoying "background-music"....even myself oso feel sick wif tat voice.... muahahhahaha

累... 泪...?

我累了...  真的累了!!!

谁来扶持我??

我从没放弃过...   

不断地尝试...

但是一次次的打击...         

让我身心疲惫不已...

当我落下最后一滴泪水时...          

代表我心已死...

求你别再烦我...

我发誓...不留恋...就~ 我眼泪干枯时...

formation of calluses ♪

hmm.... i think its time for me to hide at home.... hopefully i can get bc the honor of "Miss Cameron" by not being expose to the "lovely sun" in kampar... XD wakaka~!!  
my white complexion is missing ad... =(


bside~ my fingers started to develop something that i keep avoiding since i was young.... eeee~~ kesian lah~ calluses is growing on my fingertips... =( 

haiz~ guitar, u make me fall for u and hate u at the same time... ♫♩♪

actually both palm r having calluses too... y? 
hmmm... it related to the information below tat i wish to share wif u guys~


how much do u noe about rubber tapping? 
have u ever tried it before? =)


Rubber tapping is a hard work. 
It can starts as early as 2 am. serious~!!!! 
The coolness of the early morning air encourages the latex to flow thus improving the yield.
However, the tapping will continue until late morning. T_T 
do u believe tat it could take almost 9hours, for tapping and collecting process?!!
but its depend on how big is the plantation area.... 


A special tapping knife is used to shear off a thin layer of rubber tree's bark. if u dono hw does it look lik... here's the pic...

during the "cutting" process... care must be taking not to cut too deep as this would injure the tree. better practice few times b4 u make a real cut.... 
"boss" wil get mad and worker wil kena scold once he found tat you r "hurting" the rubber tree... 
T_T haiz....
Each night a rubber tapper must remove a thin layer of bark along a downward half spiral on the tree trunk. 

If done carefully and with skill, this tapping panel will yield latex for up to 5 years.

we usually cut it in spiral cox it allow the latex flow down to a collecting cup.

now did u realize that y the work must be done at night? so tat the latex will run longer before drying out....

The 2nd step is collect those "milky liquid".... do not feel tat tis step is more relax~ u hav to collect it from row to row, and if ur tub is almost full, u have to walk all the way bc to pit stop just to empty it...
cox as it bcome more n more heavy, it wil slow you down...cox deplete a lot of energy.... =(
Lastly, the latex will pour into molds and formic acid is added to coagulate the liquid latex.... 




Frankly, tapping of latex from a rubber tree is really a skilled job because a tapper has to make a cut which is only approximately 2 mm deep. do u think u can finished the job easily? especially do it under a dark environment...
by the way, latex doesn't smell lik fresh milk though it look lik.... u have to take minimum 45minutes in bath room to get off the "smell of money".... 
yup~ some1 said tat to me b4.... 
“ 橡胶汁很臭，那～钱臭不臭？” ( if latex is stinky, than how does money smell like? )
did u get wat he trying to interpret? 
=) congratulation if yes~

crying while u're driving is not ok?
or
its a best way to relief ur sadness/ anger/ desperate, while keep out frm others??

do u ever feel lik.... u'd rather die... ??
hav u ever scold by some1 just bcox u concerned of some1??
hav u ever critic by some1 who u helped in avoid from a unpleasant situation before??

then its time for u to learn how to manage ur EQ n stress....

h.a.h.a.

p/s:
do i like the word "family"?? i hav an unpleasant feeling towards tis word whn the alphabets come to together...
but i love it when it comprehend as "Father and Mother I Love You......"